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((and...probably wandering into NSFW-land))
The room is dark. Near's not here. That's fine. I need to think. I throw my vest onto the dresser and sit at the foot of the bed, leaning against it, my head on it. There's a chocolate bar next to me, but I'm not feeling up to unwrapping it.
Matt...I'm not sure if I did the right thing for him. Was this a good idea? And A? Why did he have to join the short list of people I give a fuck about? Two on that list was more than enough.
But, that's how it is, I guess.
And, at the end...I'm going to have to watch B. There's...something...wrong...seriously wrong with how he was at the end. I don't know if it's just blood loss or if he snapped in a new way. And just how snapped and in what way? Complete break, new, dubiously improved, or a split?
Fuck. I'm exhausted. I don't want to think. I don't want to worry.
And, the chocolate bar is there, by my side, still wrapped.
The room is dark. Near's not here. That's fine. I need to think. I throw my vest onto the dresser and sit at the foot of the bed, leaning against it, my head on it. There's a chocolate bar next to me, but I'm not feeling up to unwrapping it.
Matt...I'm not sure if I did the right thing for him. Was this a good idea? And A? Why did he have to join the short list of people I give a fuck about? Two on that list was more than enough.
But, that's how it is, I guess.
And, at the end...I'm going to have to watch B. There's...something...wrong...seriously wrong with how he was at the end. I don't know if it's just blood loss or if he snapped in a new way. And just how snapped and in what way? Complete break, new, dubiously improved, or a split?
Fuck. I'm exhausted. I don't want to think. I don't want to worry.
And, the chocolate bar is there, by my side, still wrapped.