Re-emerging (open RP)

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After the disaster in Hogsmeade and the meeting with his God, Mikami had barely left his room for over a fortnight. The house elves had agreed to bring his food there (although some of them were still unhappy with him for lasering parts of the Great Hall), and he'd taken some books from the library on his way back from Slytherin. Most of them were first-year level spell books, but there were a couple of extremely thick volumes on wizarding law. Those also made good makeshift weights. He still hadn't found a gym anywhere.

He had to keep working, keep learning. There had to be something he could do for Kira, even here, even now. Something to atone for his failure, to make things right again. He'd been letting things slide, and this was the result, but it wasn't too late. The end hadn't come yet. It had for Near, but not for Light Yagami, and God was the only one who mattered. Surely that future could be changed.

(If not, then he'd destroyed everything. He couldn't afford to let himself think of that.)

But there was a downside to constant studying. He'd run out of books a lot sooner than expected. So now, a slightly pale, withdrawn Mikami was in the library, counting the number of pages in the textbooks and occasionally weighing two against each other.

Feel free to talk to him. He needs the distraction, poor thing.

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[papayagami.livejournal.com]

"No..." Soichiro shook his head, which really didn't help the letters swimming about more than usual.

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...no. Of course he didn't. They never did. There was never any explanation when his books were defaced or his clothes were torn or someone set fire to his hair, either.

He raised his wand, and somehow his hand wasn't shaking even though everything inside him was, shaking and twisting with fury and humiliation. "Liar."

[papayagami.livejournal.com]

Soichiro was quicker, though, raising his wand and saying "Accio Wand."

[righteous-pen.livejournal.com]

He recognised the spell and tried to grip, but his hand was too wet and the wand slipped through his fingers. "Give that back!"

[papayagami.livejournal.com]

"Mikami, calm down. There are plenty of people here that would have reason to set fire to you, and some that would do it just for fun."

Speaking of, Ryuk passes them, reading a book on ghosts, eating an apple. But lets ignore him.

"You can't just accuse the first person you see. And before you mouth off about my taking your wand, you pointed it at me first."

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"I'm accusing the person who has attacked me every time we've met. It's hardly an illogical conclusion." (Temporarily forgetting that they've only met twice, and that it's only supposed to be once that he knows about. Oops.) "And other than cheap amusement, what reason would there be?"

And, he doesn't add, would everyone stop telling me to calm down?

[papayagami.livejournal.com]

"Sounds like you do remember what happened. And reasons? Well in the first time I attacked you it was, I admit, irrational fear that you would restore Light's memories. The second...well, I couldn't explain that. It was something in that...form that made me more aggressive. To be fair, you did seek out enemies of Kira."

He leaned in close so only Mikami could hear. "Be thankful I only punched you. Mello would kill you if the no-kill rule wasn't in place."

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He didn't draw back. He refused to draw back. His voice was cold, and quiet. "I have met Mello. I'm quite aware of what you'd all like to do to me."

The 'irrational fear' comment troubled him, but asking for an explanation would be backing down as well.

[papayagami.livejournal.com]

"I'm..." Soichiro swallowed. "I don't want you dead. I'm not one to pass judgement." Or is he? He shook his head.

"If you promise that you won't attack me, I will give you back your wand."

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He didn't believe that for a second.

A pause. "I won't attack you unless you force me to defend myself. I'm not planning gratuitous violence." Slamming Matt into the wall had been a moment of weakness that he still couldn't fully explain to himself.

[papayagami.livejournal.com]

He could live with that.

Soichiro handed back his wand. He picked up his book and acted for all the world that nothing happened.

"And I do apologize for that second time." Not for the first. He had Light's non-Kiraness to think of.

[righteous-pen.livejournal.com]

He didn't believe that, either, although he could believe that Yagami hadn't been in control of his actions at the time.

He replaced the wand in his pocket and turned back to the bookshelves without a word, also acting as if nothing had happened.

[papayagami.livejournal.com]

He held up his book. "I've got what I came for, so I will see you later Mikami."

Now he's got to go retch. Apparently using silent spells makes the letters and numbers move so much that he gets queasy.

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Saying I hope not would have been unnecessarily childish, so he didn't. He just continued looking at the books. There should be something about shield charms here somewhere.