Sorting out memories

[papayagami.livejournal.com]

He stared at the Pensieve, trying to control his breathing and shaking. What he saw was this:

The first major difference happened when the other's Light's girlfriend Shiori (his Light didn't even know a Shiori) was killed by Naomi Misora before she turned the gun on herself. In his time, Misora simply disappeared and L assumed it to be the work of Kira.

The next difference was Mogi was the one that went to the TV studio, and subsequently died, instead of Ukita, and poor Sayu had to witness that, too.

Takada (who he remembers as someone who once dated Light) had been a different person, and took the place of Higuchi.

And here were the important differences.

Ryuuzaki had kept the cameras in Misa's room, and was able to provide conclusive evidence that she was the second Kira. Watari then swapped the Death Note for a fake one, and planted information to keep Misa thinking that she was killing criminals.

L suspected that she (or Light, who Ryuuzaki suspected as Kira) would use Rem to kill him....so he circumvented that by writing his own name in the Death Note, 23 days after the day he wrote in it. He was doomed the minute he wrote his name, but Rem could not kill him.

She still got Watari, but L faked his death, which Light admitted to engineering.

The next part sickened Soichiro, and he could feel the other's anguish even with the memories in the Pensieve.

Light had written his name in the fake Death Note, in order to get Takada's Death Note back.

With that, he had the knowledge that his son tried to kill him (in that world anyway) and conclusive evidence that Light was Kira.

Light and Misa were both placed under arrest, with L detailing to Light all that happened. He tried to use Ryuk to kill them all, but Ryuk decided to kill Light instead-just like Near had said.

The official news was that there was none. Kira, to the public's eye, simply disappeared, Light had died fighting Kira, Misa lost her memories of the Death Note, and L died in peace, which was where the memories cut off.



So. That's how it was.

Soichiro sighed. If that Light had tried to kill that him...well, it didn't look good for his Light, now did it?

The other him had no memory of ever hearing about or seeing Near or Mello, so they probably were alive in the other's world, but without knowing them, he had no way to be sure.

One thing that did reassure him was a sane, if mourning Sayu. That gave him a bit of hope for his Sayu, even if that one didn't get kidnapped by Mello.

He fingered the cat treats he had picked up for A's cats, as he pulled out parchment and pen:



Ryuuzaki,

I came across an alternate version of events regarding the Kira case. (I'll explain in more detail in person.) I managed to get the memories of that inside a Pensieve. If you're interested, I can bring it for you to see, if you like.

Also, I heard that A was with you. I have some treats for his cats, if he's interested.

Soichiro Yagami

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[papayagami.livejournal.com]

And it does feel mildly intruding, even if it isn't his memories; it was another him, and what person would want anyone to know his son tried to kill him, his son was a murderer.

It's one thing to hear about it, another entirely to see it, have it confirmed.

If L's skin is crawling, his stomach is turning.

Still, he let L see it all, let him speak first.

[ijk-mno.livejournal.com]

When it's all played out, his head snaps back, and he's ashamed to admit that he gasps a little. Very disorienting.

Upsetting, he might even allow himself to acknowledge. No matter how well he tries to settle with the idea, he does not want to die.

"...where did I put my coffee?" He's still holding it.

[papayagami.livejournal.com]

"There," he pointed. Normalty, yes, that will help.

[ijk-mno.livejournal.com]

"Ah, yes," he takes a sip, grimaces, and then reaches for the sugar cubes.

He needs a few seconds to think through what he just saw.

[papayagami.livejournal.com]

"If anyone," he swallows, "if anyone had a right to know, it was you. If it's any reassurance, he knew nothing about Mello or Matt, so I believe they're alive."

[ijk-mno.livejournal.com]

"Then I hope..." that that's how he's going to die? It's too grizzly to say. He sips his coffee instead.

"...that things turn out alright for them."

[papayagami.livejournal.com]

"It...would be better if they lived."

And if he lived as well. But was the cost too great? He would have to live with knowing Light was Kira.

And truth be told, he would rather be dead and know Light was Kira.

[ijk-mno.livejournal.com]

"It would." He inclines his head. "My only real regret was that I failed them. I owe you my thanks, I suppose. This is some hope."

[papayagami.livejournal.com]

"I suppose it is." From L's perspective, anyway.

"I leave it to your discretion as to whether your successors see this. It doesn't affect them as much, but..."

[ijk-mno.livejournal.com]

"They are your memories." He shakes his head. "I can give them the news by word of mouth, and the invasion of your privacy will remain minimal."

[papayagami.livejournal.com]

"They aren't completely mine. It did happen to another me. But...I think he would have wanted them to know that they would live in his time."

[ijk-mno.livejournal.com]

"I will tell them." He sips his coffee again. He feels a little unsteady on his feet. "I want them to know too."

[papayagami.livejournal.com]

He nodded. Another sip of his coffee.

He transfigured his Pensieve back into a pair of keys and pocketed them. "They can come find me. I keep the Pensive on me at all times. Such knowledge...it shouldn't get into certain hands."

[ijk-mno.livejournal.com]

"I will let them know the option is available, if they are comfortable taking it."

He won't force them.

"Please, do not tell A of my fate?"

[papayagami.livejournal.com]

"I think that would be best. I get the feeling that he would overreact." Another sip. "How is he, by the way?"

[ijk-mno.livejournal.com]

"Probably." Though it might be nice if someone seemed upset by the idea. But A is clearly not the person. "He is doing better. Healing very well."

[papayagami.livejournal.com]

"Healing? I wasn't aware he had been injured. Or are you talking metaphorically?"

[ijk-mno.livejournal.com]

"I mentioned he was staying with me? B attacked him. There was a knife involved."

That's as much detail as he's going in to.

[papayagami.livejournal.com]

"I see." For some reason, he was more angry about that than about other things.

"Is he up for a visitor, at least?"

[ijk-mno.livejournal.com]

"Oh, certainly. He is doing much better." L sips his coffee.

"Shall I go see if he would care to join us?"

[papayagami.livejournal.com]

"Please. And if he wants to bring his cats, he can."

[ijk-mno.livejournal.com]

"I'll just be a moment."

He ducks away to find A and his entourage of fluffballs.

[i-am-an-hero.livejournal.com]

It hadn't been hard to get A out of his room. He'd pulled the shapeless blue dress on over his clothes, tucked Schrodinger and Einstein into the large pockets, and followed L gamely downstairs.

He did like Soichiro Yagami, after all.

[papayagami.livejournal.com]

He smiled a bit at A wearing that dress again. Whatever works, I suppose.

"Hi, A. I brought something for your kitties," he said, holding up the bag.

[ijk-mno.livejournal.com]

L goes to prepare himself more coffee, while the gift and thanks are exchanged. It is best for A to handle small social situations like this on his own.