Owl to Mr. Wednesday
Sep. 25th, 2008 04:34 am![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png)
As much as I love Near, and as much as he's being very supportive and very loving, I know he's pissed at Matt. Talking to him about Matt isn't really possible. Not that I really blame him for how he feels, but I do need to talk to someone. There's things I need to get out of my head. Talking to L isn't really an option. We still really only get along in the dojo when we're fighting. Kusu's a good teacher, but I don't really know him that well. A's definitely out. Kurama's still a little too new, though I will take up his offer to hang out some to give Near some time to rest.
Mr. Wednesday is actually the first person I thought of, but I...I'm not sure if I can really bother him about this. Part of me thinks he already knows, part of me is leery of approaching him. It's not for any specific reason. Maybe it's just that if I talk to someone outside 'our group,' it'll make the whole thing more real.
I still haven't gone to see Matt's name myself. I'm not ready. But, I need to talk. I need to get some things out of my head so they stop getting bigger and bigger. I know Near's told me this isn't my fault, that he won't leave or if he has no choice, he'll try to tell me, but the fears are still there.
Explaining to Near that I need to talk to an 'old wise guy' isn't too bad. He knows that Wednesday has helped me before and I think he's a little relieved, too. When I'm up to it, I'll definitely need to let him know how much I appreciate him.
So, writing the note is actually the hardest part of this. I send it via house elf because I don't want to run across people on the way to the owlery.
Mr. Wednesday,
I recently received some rather painful news. If you have time, could we talk?
M
Still rather abrupt, but I've never been a long letter writer and I'm definitely not up for written pleasantries right now.
Mr. Wednesday is actually the first person I thought of, but I...I'm not sure if I can really bother him about this. Part of me thinks he already knows, part of me is leery of approaching him. It's not for any specific reason. Maybe it's just that if I talk to someone outside 'our group,' it'll make the whole thing more real.
I still haven't gone to see Matt's name myself. I'm not ready. But, I need to talk. I need to get some things out of my head so they stop getting bigger and bigger. I know Near's told me this isn't my fault, that he won't leave or if he has no choice, he'll try to tell me, but the fears are still there.
Explaining to Near that I need to talk to an 'old wise guy' isn't too bad. He knows that Wednesday has helped me before and I think he's a little relieved, too. When I'm up to it, I'll definitely need to let him know how much I appreciate him.
So, writing the note is actually the hardest part of this. I send it via house elf because I don't want to run across people on the way to the owlery.
Mr. Wednesday,
I recently received some rather painful news. If you have time, could we talk?
M
Still rather abrupt, but I've never been a long letter writer and I'm definitely not up for written pleasantries right now.