It was that initial shock and as Sam came talking, the look in his eyes, the desperation in his voice. Dean could see it all, Sam needed him to support him in this. Hadn't Dean swore he wasn't his dad, he wasn't going to make those mistakes.
The hunter slammed the last of his beer and gestured for another. It was hard to talk, ten years was a long time when you were the one sitting top side, waiting for your family to come home.
"We're goin' over that thing with a fine tooth comb, Bobby's gonna look at it to. You got that Sammy, we ain't gonna give the snake tongued bastard an inch of room for a loophole."
It was hard to accept, hard to bite back that anger. But in the end, this was a better chance than the alternative. This was better than agreeing to let his brother dive in to the pit with no way to ever come back.
Sam all but flinched as his brother slammed down the beer angrily. He needed Dean to do this with him, he needed him to understand, but he couldn’t force the issue. The younger Winchester nodded, “I was going to show it to Bobby too.”
“Dean, this is the only way. Things will finally work out for us. Look, I don’t regret jumping to save you. And if I can do this, I can save Adam and keep me out of Hell. You’re not going to be alone for those years. I’ll still be able to visit you. I won’t leave you alone, I promise.”
He gave a half-shrug. “And.. I can do some real good while I’m there. I can try and help people. It’s what we’ve always done, right?”
“I need you with me on this Dean,” he said quietly. “Please.”
"I get it, Sammy, alright, I get it. We just ain't goin' in half cocked, got it." His voice said it all, he was resigned to this. Because, it was their best option and in the end, he just didn't want to lose Sam for good.
"Yeah, just don't bring any of the locals home with you." The hunter cracked, it was his way of covering up the well of emotion that surged through him when Sam promised he wouldn't leave him alone. He knew that, if Sam had the option to be with him, he would. It didn't make this any easier knowing that though.
"Yeah, you'll do great Sammy, I know it."
When Sam said that, Dean looked up, all his pain, all his worry didn't fade, but it paled in comparison to that request from his brother "I got your back, remember, we go down, we go down together." He smiled, not that cocky grin but a genuine smile.
It was a tremendous relief to hear that from his brother. He didn't expect Dean to like it, but his support meant everything. Naturally there was a little crack in there, but it was how Dean was.
"We're not going down this time, dude. This time we're going to make it work and we're all walking out free and clear. This wasn't Adam's fight, and he should go where he belongs."
He fiddled with the label on his beer bottle. "I know ten years is a long time. But I'll come back as often as I can, Dean. I promise."
Dean hated it, but he was going to back Sam up. He knew when his brother's mind was made up and if supporting him was what he had to do to save Sam, then he'd do it. It was a lot less than the prices he had paid and would pay again if necessary.
"You tell the kid yet? How you think he's gonna take it?" Dean saw a good portion of that stubborn Winchester streak in Adam and he wasn't sure the kid would be okay with what Sam was doing, at least not at first.
"You got a point though, too bad we couldn't get the kid his mom back, he's gonna be on his own, Sam." Dean hadn't thought of that till right then, Adam was being saved from hell, but he was also facing a world with no one. That seemed unfair too.
When Sam started fidgeting with his label, Dean grinned and reached over to clap a hand over his shoulder "Damn right you will, I expect lots of booze and porn for Christmas, make up for you leavin' me topside to do all the dirty work."
So long as Dean was at his back, it was all right. He’d have Bobby look the paperwork over and talk to Crowley to make the final deal. He didn’t really want to work for a demon, but he could sacrifice ten years of hard work – and he would work hard to make it all balance out – for the sake of both Adam and his family’s peace.
Sam shrugged a little. It was not a conversation he was looking forward to having with Adam. “He’s not alone Dean. He’s got us. We’re the only family he’s got, and he doesn’t exactly seem to hate being around us anymore. But it’s my decision to do this, I’ll talk to him about it.”
He chuckled at that. “All the dirty Christmases and birthdays you can handle, dude. Promise.”
Truth be told this was probably one of the better deals the Winchesters had ever made with a demon. But, Dean couldn't stop the nagging part of him that told the hunter he was walking right back in to that same routine that he and Sam had tried so hard to stop.
But how could he look at his brother's face right now and say any of that out loud. Sam was hopeful and Dean was just hoping that all of this worked out the way he saw it. "I'll keep an eye on the kid, if he'll let me."
Dean flashed that wide cocky grin at that "Damn right. Ain't no way I can go back to Lisa and Ben, not if I'm goin' back in to the life. Gonna have to hit the road, on my own when you're not around."
Sam didn't like the idea of Dean hitting the road on his own, but he knew his brother would be all right. "And you won't be alone. Bobby'll be there, Cas will too. And I'll check in as often as I can, Dean. Promise."
"I'll talk to Adam. He's a good guy, and having family around might be a welcome change for him."
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Date: 2011-04-30 09:52 pm (UTC)The hunter slammed the last of his beer and gestured for another. It was hard to talk, ten years was a long time when you were the one sitting top side, waiting for your family to come home.
"We're goin' over that thing with a fine tooth comb, Bobby's gonna look at it to. You got that Sammy, we ain't gonna give the snake tongued bastard an inch of room for a loophole."
It was hard to accept, hard to bite back that anger. But in the end, this was a better chance than the alternative. This was better than agreeing to let his brother dive in to the pit with no way to ever come back.
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Date: 2011-04-30 10:19 pm (UTC)“Dean, this is the only way. Things will finally work out for us. Look, I don’t regret jumping to save you. And if I can do this, I can save Adam and keep me out of Hell. You’re not going to be alone for those years. I’ll still be able to visit you. I won’t leave you alone, I promise.”
He gave a half-shrug. “And.. I can do some real good while I’m there. I can try and help people. It’s what we’ve always done, right?”
“I need you with me on this Dean,” he said quietly. “Please.”
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Date: 2011-05-01 02:12 am (UTC)"Yeah, just don't bring any of the locals home with you." The hunter cracked, it was his way of covering up the well of emotion that surged through him when Sam promised he wouldn't leave him alone. He knew that, if Sam had the option to be with him, he would. It didn't make this any easier knowing that though.
"Yeah, you'll do great Sammy, I know it."
When Sam said that, Dean looked up, all his pain, all his worry didn't fade, but it paled in comparison to that request from his brother "I got your back, remember, we go down, we go down together." He smiled, not that cocky grin but a genuine smile.
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Date: 2011-05-01 06:24 pm (UTC)"We're not going down this time, dude. This time we're going to make it work and we're all walking out free and clear. This wasn't Adam's fight, and he should go where he belongs."
He fiddled with the label on his beer bottle. "I know ten years is a long time. But I'll come back as often as I can, Dean. I promise."
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Date: 2011-05-02 12:23 am (UTC)"You tell the kid yet? How you think he's gonna take it?" Dean saw a good portion of that stubborn Winchester streak in Adam and he wasn't sure the kid would be okay with what Sam was doing, at least not at first.
"You got a point though, too bad we couldn't get the kid his mom back, he's gonna be on his own, Sam." Dean hadn't thought of that till right then, Adam was being saved from hell, but he was also facing a world with no one. That seemed unfair too.
When Sam started fidgeting with his label, Dean grinned and reached over to clap a hand over his shoulder "Damn right you will, I expect lots of booze and porn for Christmas, make up for you leavin' me topside to do all the dirty work."
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Date: 2011-05-02 02:12 am (UTC)Sam shrugged a little. It was not a conversation he was looking forward to having with Adam. “He’s not alone Dean. He’s got us. We’re the only family he’s got, and he doesn’t exactly seem to hate being around us anymore. But it’s my decision to do this, I’ll talk to him about it.”
He chuckled at that. “All the dirty Christmases and birthdays you can handle, dude. Promise.”
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Date: 2011-05-03 01:58 am (UTC)But how could he look at his brother's face right now and say any of that out loud. Sam was hopeful and Dean was just hoping that all of this worked out the way he saw it. "I'll keep an eye on the kid, if he'll let me."
Dean flashed that wide cocky grin at that "Damn right. Ain't no way I can go back to Lisa and Ben, not if I'm goin' back in to the life. Gonna have to hit the road, on my own when you're not around."
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Date: 2011-05-07 02:39 am (UTC)"I'll talk to Adam. He's a good guy, and having family around might be a welcome change for him."