"Quit wincing like I'm going to hit you," Kurama growled, agitated. He rapped his fingers on the table again, trying to quantify what the worst bits were.
"About sixty percent three, twenty percent one, and twenty percent two. And..." what the hell, Mello wasn't the one he should be opening up to about this. But he was so desperately afraid of turning Kusuriyuri away with his stupid, stubborn refusal to change and his constant psychological turmoil. He sighed, though, knowing that once Mello had a bone he wasn't going to stop gnawing at it.
"It's... being Youko was idyllic because I didn't have to worry about morality or emotions. Not outwardly, anyway. Everyone was perfectly content to let me be a bastard. Later, when I died, I had to learn how to make a pretty shell so no one would realize I was doing thing deliberately to hurt them. I can't get away with that anymore, because Kusuriyuri won't let me, and as much as I love him for it, I think I resent him, too." And the thought of any emotion but love for Kusuriyuri made his skin crawl, but it was there.
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Date: 2010-11-02 01:00 am (UTC)"About sixty percent three, twenty percent one, and twenty percent two. And..." what the hell, Mello wasn't the one he should be opening up to about this. But he was so desperately afraid of turning Kusuriyuri away with his stupid, stubborn refusal to change and his constant psychological turmoil. He sighed, though, knowing that once Mello had a bone he wasn't going to stop gnawing at it.
"It's... being Youko was idyllic because I didn't have to worry about morality or emotions. Not outwardly, anyway. Everyone was perfectly content to let me be a bastard. Later, when I died, I had to learn how to make a pretty shell so no one would realize I was doing thing deliberately to hurt them. I can't get away with that anymore, because Kusuriyuri won't let me, and as much as I love him for it, I think I resent him, too." And the thought of any emotion but love for Kusuriyuri made his skin crawl, but it was there.