http://red-eyed-l.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] red-eyed-l.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] hh_mirror2008-04-13 07:56 pm
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[Closed RP] Justification for the self-defense

So this was turning out to be a good week. He got laid, he met another A, and he got a decent drink.

He missed his Attempt, though. And he felt the need to have power over something, since, for a time, he was under someone else's power.

Ah, there he is. In a low voice so A couldn't hear him, Beyond said "Petrifucus Totalus."


[[[NWS. All actions herein cleared with the respective muns.]]]

[identity profile] i-am-an-hero.livejournal.com 2008-04-14 12:06 am (UTC)(link)
Didn't hear it, no, not hear it, but A knew the spell for what it was when it hit him, and he fell.

Oh, oh no, not B, not B again, please no...

[identity profile] i-am-an-hero.livejournal.com 2008-04-14 12:13 am (UTC)(link)
If A could speak, could move, he'd struggle and protest. If he could reach his wand, he'd let fly with every hex he knew.

But there was only one thing he could do: nothing.

[identity profile] i-am-an-hero.livejournal.com 2008-04-14 12:26 am (UTC)(link)
As soon as A could move, A tried to roll out of the way of the chair. Not only was it not entirely successful (it bounced painfully off his hip), but it sent him right into the path of the hex, the spell-created cords winding tightly around him.

"B, no, it's no, B, don't." He tried very hard to sound firm instead of terrified.

[identity profile] i-am-an-hero.livejournal.com 2008-04-14 12:33 am (UTC)(link)
A shivered at that. Matt, did Matt realize just what B was really like? Really truly understand?

"He wouldn't like that. Matt's his friend."

[identity profile] i-am-an-hero.livejournal.com 2008-04-14 12:40 am (UTC)(link)
"They already hate you, hate you, B. And yes, oh, they'll get you, they will, they'll help me get you."

[identity profile] i-am-an-hero.livejournal.com 2008-04-14 12:44 am (UTC)(link)
"They're smart, B. They can figure out, figure out ways. You think you're smarter but they'll get you."

They would. A knew they would. But when?

[identity profile] i-am-an-hero.livejournal.com 2008-04-14 12:49 am (UTC)(link)
A tried to turn his face away, a low whine building in his throat.

"Not good, good, there's nothing good in you, no good in anything you do."

[identity profile] i-am-an-hero.livejournal.com 2008-04-14 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
A tried again to wriggle away, to roll away, to get away.

"Doesn't feel good. you bothering me doesn't feel good."

He was still trying to control his voice, trying not to sound scared, trying... but oh, oh, he was scared, so scared. And now B had his knife.

[identity profile] i-am-an-hero.livejournal.com 2008-04-14 01:03 am (UTC)(link)
"Not good," A gasped, breath hitching. He tried not to whimper.

Just a physical reaction. Just a basic physical reaction. He tried to separate his fear and revulsion from what he knew intellectually, tried to remember his breathing. Slow breath in, hold, breathe out...

[identity profile] i-am-an-hero.livejournal.com 2008-04-14 01:12 am (UTC)(link)
A screamed then, shrill and panicky, afraid even to thrash now; what if B stabbed him, cut him bad, cut him enough to make him bleed and be weak?

"Stopstopstop," he whispered.

[identity profile] i-am-an-hero.livejournal.com 2008-04-14 01:19 am (UTC)(link)
While B held the knife so close, A held still, tried so hard to be still, but he was trembling, and an involuntary whine escaped him.

"Not blood, no no, not blood", he whispered, screwing his eyes shut.

[identity profile] i-am-an-hero.livejournal.com 2008-04-14 01:31 am (UTC)(link)
"You'll do what you want anyway," A said wearily, still shaking, breaking out in fear-sweat. "You always do just what it is you want, only what you want."

[identity profile] i-am-an-hero.livejournal.com 2008-04-14 01:50 am (UTC)(link)
"No," A cried out, trying to curl up into a ball.

Don't show fear... Kusuriyuri, L, they wouldn't want me to show fear, to give B what he wants.

But they weren't here, and A whimpered.

"Leave me alone," he pleaded.

[identity profile] i-am-an-hero.livejournal.com 2008-04-14 01:58 am (UTC)(link)
"No," A whispered, hunching his shoulders, trying to disappear into himself. The bloody mess on his hip throbbed and seared.

Breathe. Slow breath in, hold, slow breath out.

It wouldn't be enough. A knew it wouldn't be enough. But he had to try.

[identity profile] i-am-an-hero.livejournal.com 2008-04-14 02:09 am (UTC)(link)
"Don't, B," A begged. He wouldn't listen, of course, B never listened, but he couldn't stop pleading.

Afraid, yes, he was afraid. But he was angry, too.

He'd get B. Find a way to get him.

Hurt him.

Kill him.

[identity profile] i-am-an-hero.livejournal.com 2008-04-14 02:15 am (UTC)(link)
"Filthy," A growled at him, fighting back a cry. Angry. Be angry. Anger made him feel less sick and weak. "You're filthy, B, filthy and no one likes you, no one doesn't want you to die!"

It hurt, and it was easier to be angry if it hurt, easier not to feel the queasy humiliation of mock-affectionate touches.

[identity profile] i-am-an-hero.livejournal.com 2008-04-14 02:22 am (UTC)(link)
"Miss you to miss hexing you. Miss you to not see you hurt," A spat defiantly, because who would want B around? "Filthy, ugly, hateful, Backup!"

[identity profile] i-am-an-hero.livejournal.com 2008-04-14 02:30 am (UTC)(link)
And that was better, so much better, not to have those horrid unwanted caresses that pulled those damning reaction from him... better that it just be attack, that he could whimper from the pain only while waiting for B to be over.