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Deals and Drinks and Slightly Depraved Desires (Closed RP for Richard and Camilla)
((Backdated to 7/17ish.))
Demon deals were, in the crudest of terms, a shit idea. Literature was strewn with examples; the mortal very rarely got the good end of the stick. And yet...
When the jovial guy with yellow eyes had offered Richard anything, he hadn't hesitated. One word, spoken with a fevered reverence, as if he was summoning some ancient goddess to rise from the incense and dust of her alter and walk among them. One word and it was done. The price was some favor to be done later, but Richard barely heard the terms. He walked out of the Great Hall - he had simply come down for a cup of coffee and maybe some breakfast, never knowing that he'd chosen a seat next to destiny in the form of a very average man - with a spring in his step and a sense of very clear purpose. This was his right. He would have what he wanted. Finally.
The day was spent in a walk around the grounds. Richard saw the world in a new light. He would have her. Finally, she would be his. Not Henry's. Not Charles'. He deserved this every bit as much as anyone else. After everything, she would see. She would realize.
Camilla would come to him. The demon had promised her to him. The terms were not important, the wording was a detail he didn't need to bother with. He'd said 'Camilla' and the demon had smiled - something cold and chilling that made him think of worms on a corpse or the winter's breeze across dead grass - and nodded and that was enough.
Finally making his way back to his room, Richard sat in the chair by the fire with a glass of scotch and a cigarette. Waiting.
Demon deals were, in the crudest of terms, a shit idea. Literature was strewn with examples; the mortal very rarely got the good end of the stick. And yet...
When the jovial guy with yellow eyes had offered Richard anything, he hadn't hesitated. One word, spoken with a fevered reverence, as if he was summoning some ancient goddess to rise from the incense and dust of her alter and walk among them. One word and it was done. The price was some favor to be done later, but Richard barely heard the terms. He walked out of the Great Hall - he had simply come down for a cup of coffee and maybe some breakfast, never knowing that he'd chosen a seat next to destiny in the form of a very average man - with a spring in his step and a sense of very clear purpose. This was his right. He would have what he wanted. Finally.
The day was spent in a walk around the grounds. Richard saw the world in a new light. He would have her. Finally, she would be his. Not Henry's. Not Charles'. He deserved this every bit as much as anyone else. After everything, she would see. She would realize.
Camilla would come to him. The demon had promised her to him. The terms were not important, the wording was a detail he didn't need to bother with. He'd said 'Camilla' and the demon had smiled - something cold and chilling that made him think of worms on a corpse or the winter's breeze across dead grass - and nodded and that was enough.
Finally making his way back to his room, Richard sat in the chair by the fire with a glass of scotch and a cigarette. Waiting.
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She acknowledged the power of fate. Anything less abstract, any specific power, she never dreamed could influence her actions. What she did on this particular evening did not seem to her at all uncharacteristic, nor would it have seemed out of place to anyone who knew her. She was impulsive; she was generous; she became bored easily; she had a habit of dropping by friends' rooms unannounced, on a whim. She hadn't seen Richard at dinner in the Great Hall, so she'd brought him a cream cheese and marmalade sandwich, wrapped in a napkin. She'd done this before, at Hampden, and so had Charles; the twins seemed constitutionally incapable of understanding that no one else liked cream cheese and marmalade as much as they did.
She rapped lightly at the door, completely nonchalant, completely unaware of any expectations the room's inhabitant might harbor. As far as Camilla knew, he couldn't expect anything from her, not even something so trivial as a cream cheese and marmalade sandwich.
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Rising, he opened the door, unsurprised to find Camilla on the other side. An easy smile, one that might be seen being exchanged between old and easy lovers, crossed his face. This was the first time of many that Camilla would be in his room like this. They would be together, now. It was as inevitable as all the great romances throughout the ages. Destiny. Fate. His right. There would be days spent just talking, intellects matched and sharpening each other. Nights spent in ecstasy, bodies wrapped around and tangled together and made complete. An entire lifetime of just the two of them. It was what was meant to be.
"Camilla," he greeted her, moving aside, touching her shoulder gently in greeting. "What brings you here?" As if he didn't know.
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Also, she was bored, and it was getting too dark to enlist Silas into a game of croquet. This much she wouldn't spell out for Richard.
Moving past him into the room, taking it for granted that she was welcome, she added with a note of melancholy: "I didn't see Henry there either. You haven't heard anything from him, have you?"
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Her mention of Henry made him literally stumble slightly, toe catching on the rug. "Um." Thinking quickly, Richard tugged on the sleeves of his shirt and he set the sandwich down on a handy end table. This was not how this was supposed to go. Richard bit back a slight flash of annoyance before replying, "No. I haven't. I would imagine he knows I'm...well, back." Richard waved his hand vaguely and offered a sad half-smile. "But I haven't heard or seen from him. I even stopped by his room, but there was no answer." A lie. Richard was in no hurry to meet up with a newly-undead Henry; it was too disturbing of a prospect. But Camilla should think he had made every effort to contact his friend.
"Sit down, please. And," his smile grew wider, "thank you for the sandwich. It was lonely, drinking by myself, with only my thoughts to keep me company. Can...can I get you something?"
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But here she was, not alone; she had her friends; yes, even Richard, who'd always been a friend, a very dear friend. "Don't let's talk about it. Tell me about you. What have you been up to?"
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Richard hid a triumphant grin behind the glass as he took a drink. Of course it would work out. Camilla was here, wasn't she? As his precious goddess turned her focus to him, Richard all but preened. Like a hothouse flower under the sun, he luxuriated under even the simplest of attentions.
"Not much," he admitted with a rueful shrug. "Sadly, classical languages are sorely neglected, here. I've been trying to remind myself of some spells. I think it's a matter of sense memory - my muscles remember the movements, but the incantations aren't coming back." He grimaced and took a drink. "I miss my university, truth be told. I understood Marlowe. This slap-dash Latin is a different story."
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"I wonder what Marlowe would have made of it all. He who wrote Faustus -- what would he have made of a place like Hogwarts, where real sorcery's done? Not all tricks and fripperies, either. Curses, some so dire they're called Unforgivable. Except we haven't sold anything for this. It seems people are simply born with it. The way some people are born with money, or looks."
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She spoke of Faustus. He heard 'I love you'.
"He would have seen his deepest dreams and darkest imaginings come true," he said, eyes caressing her. Richard spoke not only of Marlowe's view of Hogwarts, but his own mounting desire and anticipation. Camilla was his fantasy - and his future, now. He was here when Henry had abandoned her, when Charles had become someone to avoid. He was here, and she was with him, now. His, eternally. As it should be.
Taking another drink, he reached over to refill Camilla's glass, adding, "Too bad they don't teach Greek, here." He smiled up at her. "I miss the sound of it."
From her lips most of all. A secret language, almost, in its rarity. Something meant to murmur endearments and promises. Something he would use in bed with Camilla, he was sure. Soon.
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Democratic ideals of education were rather beyond Camilla.
"I'm not articulating it well," she said absently, her brows drawing together slightly. "I've had a little too much to drink." Even as she said this, she finished off her second glass. "But you know what I mean. <That which is sacred is not to be given unto the barbarians,>," this last in perfectly fluid ancient Greek despite her tipsiness. Then she laughed softly at the circularity of her own argument. The word for barbarians, barbaroi, in itself designated the peoples who did not speak Greek. Her eyes shone, bright with merriment and liquor, inviting him to share the joke -- reinforcing the sense that he numbered among that small select few who could detect such humor, let alone appreciate it.
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At her complaint about the temperature, he chuckled softly and set his glass aside. "Here," he reached gently for her robe, his heart slamming wildly in his chest in delicious anticipation. "Let me help you with that, then. Might as well take it off, if you're over-warm." And so it started. Each second, every gesture, the sound of the words falling from her lips, was something to be cherished. The first of many, the start of a lifetime. He'd dreamed of this moment, just like this. The demon must have known. The day growing later, both slightly tipsy, exchanging thoughts and ideals with the ease of equals. And then an opening from Camilla - maybe just the tilt of her had or a phrase uttered with those storm gray eyes fixed on his - onto which he would seize, manfully, with the full voracity of someone long entitled and long denied.
"We do have time to make up for," he agreed, eyes devouring her face. "I don't want to waste any more of it. Not on any of them." The rabble. The unworthy. Bunny who made her afraid, Henry who used her and left her, and Charles who cheapened her. All the commoners, the barbarians, who did not fully appreciate her glory. Their time was done, now. It was down to him, and to his prize.
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"It's a silly uniform," she said, "to wear robes in the summer over perfectly decent clothes, but then I read the school used to go out of session over the summer, like Hampden in the winter." Her glass still in one hand, she raised the other hand to the neck of her robe, to undo it as best she could. He had already reached to undo it, and their fingers met. Gray eyes widened -- cool, pale as water, and troubled as water too. "Richard?" The touch had something magnetic in it, something curious that kept from drawing her hand away.
(Had she been thinking clearly, she might have remembered just such a current running through the counter that the demon Phil had given her, that little token by which he meant to tempt her. But Camilla had long ago rid herself of that counter, and never gave it another thought.)
The school robe, undone, fell about her shoulders, revealing the thin pale cotton of her blouse taut over skin the summer sun had gilded these past weeks. She ignored it. "It's warm in here because you have a fire going," she said, faintly amused, all the more faintly for the remoteness of it, as though her attention was divided between the conversation and something more gripping. "I guess we can't put it out." Her eyes didn't move in the direction of the fireplace; her gaze was held by his.
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His hand left hers to skim down her shoulder. "No," he chuckled. "Fireplaces here seem to have a mind of their own." Her skin glowed in the candlelight, giving her an other-worldly glow. She was a painting come to life, art and heaven wrapped in mere flesh and blood.
"God," he said softly, voice wondering and filled with reverent awe. "You are so beautiful." Then Richard moved forward, their lips meeting in a gentle kiss.
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She still held her drink in one hand, and her fingers slackened around it. The glass crashed to the floor; startled, Camilla stiffened and pulled away.
"We shouldn't," she said, eyes wide.
Henry had disappeared, true. Henry had quite possibly left her of his own volition. That didn't matter to Camilla. At the time she'd rejected Richard's proposal of marriage, back in Boston, on the grounds she loved Henry, Henry had been dead, and as far as she'd known then, death was irrevocable.
So she protested now. Yet she remained where she was, still, not rising to leave, not so much as moving out of Richard's reach. She bit her lip, very slightly, her eyes still riveted by his.
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<"Yes,"> he murmured in flawless Greek. <"We should.">
His thumb brushed across those full, perfect lips and then moved around to bury itself in her hair. Strong, slim fingers tangled themselves with golden curls and pulled Camilla back to him. His mouth descended onto hers, claiming it for his own. She tasted sweet and tangy, like summer and alcohol and marmalade. Wanting nothing more than to make her fully his, Richard leaned into the kiss, trailing his fingers up and down the small of her back.
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The right words in the right language. He said they should, and why shouldn't they? He was her friend. She loved him, as she loved all her friends. Had he been at the bacchanal with them, she would have welcomed him then, whether she had the presence of mind to know it or not. This was no different. They had been drinking just now, which was in itself sacred in a way. Her reeling mind cast up a flurry of reasons why she could do what she wanted to do, and what she wanted was this, for no reason she could discern.
She tried to articulate this, brokenly, pulling away for air. She only got as far as "<Love>" -- and every language failed her. Uncertain, she clung to him, and let his touch burn away her doubts.
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His fingers fumbled on her buttons as he tried to divest Camilla of her clothing. The buttons became, in his mind, not just bits of plastic holding together her shirt, but representations of every thing that had ever come between them. They were Charles and his sick, incestuous obsession. His bruising desire that crushed the delicate flower of Camilla's very soul. They were Henry. Perfect Henry. Who had left her; not just this time, but before, in a blaze of gunfire and a sudden blast of noise. Henry who never really understood the treasure he had in Camilla. The buttons were Bunny, and his insidious poison, and Francis, always standing back and watching. They were Julian. They were Hampden, and the money he lacked, and the years that had been ripped from them.
With every second that passed, Richard loathed the buttons more. What they represented infuriated him. Ignited some deeply buried anger. His kisses were harder, now, against her lips, and he shifted to hover over her prone body. He wanted to take her - to take her and posses her and drive out thoughts of all others beside himself. She was his, now. She had been given to him. She was his and he deserved her.
Expelling a sharp growl, Richard ripped the front of Camilla's shirt open. The buttons popped and flew into the dark corners of the room; and, just like that, they were alone. No ghosts haunting them, no twin standing over them. His mouth moved hungrily to taste the skin of her neck even as his hands traced a heated path down her exposed skin. <"You are a goddess, divine. Let me worship you.">
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None of these things happened. Incredibly, swift white hands rose not to fend him off, but to help him. Unbuttoning and unzipping her skirt, she raised her hips slightly so she could tug it off, wriggling it down her legs when she had pushed it beyond her hands' reach, then kicking it away brusquely; she raised her shoulders so that he could pull the ruined blouse away from her body, lifted her arms so that the sleeves could be threaded off. Her school tie with its Gryffindor crest had at some point come loose, and she plucked it away from the blouse's collar to loop its silken length across the back of Richard's neck, drawing his face down to hers again. Her mouth sought his as she let the tie go, her hands slipping down to his waist, pulling his shirt untucked, darting impetuous hands between shirt and skin.
None of this seemed forced or mechanical or at all unwilling. She moved fluidly, eagerly, as if she'd wanted this for ages -- as if she'd only been waiting for him to make the first move. How much of it was real? Which was real: her assent now, or her prior indifference? Camilla had always been mercurial at best, unpredictable as anything, much to the dismay of those who loved her. She did not herself know why she acted now as she did. She wouldn't stop to think about it. The room was too warm: her mind returned to that fact again and again, whenever she tried to consider her circumstances. The room was too warm, her skin flushed with drink and with the fire's heat, Richard's body warm against hers through his clothes (and something had to be done about that), the words he spoke racing through her head like fire. She murmured her answer against his lips, her Greek as perfect as his. <"Call me what you will, only love me."> The word she used now was not the same word for love she had used earlier. That had been an abstract noun, one suited to the discussion of abstract attachments. This -- this was a verb, suffice it to say. A very active verb.
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His long fingers slid down her arms, gently pinning them above her head as he straddled her waist, hovering over her. Richard's lips slid from hers to trail down her neck, tiny nips alternating with tongue and mouth to leave little marks. Mine, he thought with vicious pride at each inch of reddening skin. He soothed each with gentle kisses, a low, rumbling growl building in his chest as he moved down Camilla's body.
The slope of her breasts, ivory skin smooth and with just the faintest sheen of sweat, were explored by nimble fingers and tongue. This was his, now. Mine. He wondered, absently, as the taste of her filled his mouth, as the scent of her washed over his senses, who the last person to touch her like this was. No, not like this. No one had touched her like this. Because this was true and right and fate. But whose hands had stroked along her skin, whose tongue had driven her wild?
Charles', perhaps? He thought about that, about her golden twin devouring her body, and his fingers tightened on her waist marginally. No. Mine - the word echoed in his head again, pounding right alongside his heartbeat, and Richard lowered his mouth back to her pale skin. As if his kisses would drive away the ghost of Charles' touch.
Or maybe it was Henry. Smug, arrogant, perfect Henry. Back from the dead, fucking Camilla when he wasn't worthy to even be in her presence. Richard's lips once more found Camilla's in a crushing kiss, his free hand slid beneath the waistband of her panties to touch her there. To make her writhe and gasp because of him. Not Henry. Never again Henry.
Mine, his brain exalted, and every breath echoed it. Mine.
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What would she have thought, if she knew what images flickered behind his closed eyes as he touched her? Would she have rebelled? Would she have found his fixation on her former lovers repugnant? Horrifying? Or would she have accepted it as natural, and only her due? She and Henry and Charles were all extraordinary people. More ordinary people would always be fascinated by the things she and her friends did. Richard she might locate somewhere on the frontier between them and the rest of the world, hovering between the angels and the animals. Ever erratic, she included or excluded him from her conceptual circle at whim.
If Camilla could accept Henry's worship as no less than her right -- Henry, the best and brightest of all of them, the closest thing to perfect she'd ever known -- then Richard's worship she must take as a foregone conclusion. And she did. She took every moment of it for granted, every artful kiss, every clever touch, every thrilling little movement of his tongue against her skin. What communion she felt was almost impersonal, a sort of hazy approval that found concrete expression through sharp little moments of hunger when she wanted more -- not even more of him, just more -- and the want made her cling to him, arch into his attentions. He might as well have been Charles, or Stephen, or even Susan. Not Henry, never Henry, who was always careful with her, meticulously so; even in his most possessive moments, Henry would never have nipped at her skin this roughly. She couldn't mistake that much. It was only that she didn't care that it wasn't Henry.
In that, at least, Richard might claim some sort of victory, inadequate though it would have been. The thing was, Camilla didn't care that it was Richard, either. She only cared that it felt good, and that for some reason she didn't see fit to interrogate, she wanted this. Wanted him to keep doing what he was doing, exactly how he was doing it, and she gasped with the pleasure of it. "That's so good," she said, meaning it, sincere at least that far; and it only got better, God, she really didn't want it ever to stop. The alternation of rough bites and gentle kisses, her skin tingling under his mouth and hands, perfect beyond telling.
The alcohol probably helped too.
His hand slipping beneath the elastic at her waist signaled his intent, and she moved to make it easier. As cool and reserved as she always was, the sheer indignity of the whimper she couldn't restrain might have come as a shock, or as another little victory for him. She didn't know or care. She didn't care even that it might be undignified. She parted for him, sweet and soft.
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Naked above her, their skin both shining in the firelight like twin gods, Richard pulled back to look down at his prize. His treasure. His precious Camilla.
"You are perfect," he breathed. In that ecstatic knowing that all she was had been laid out for him, he eased off the last bit of fabric separating them and, gently, moved inside of her.
They were one, now; the thought itself was almost as euphoric as the feeling of Camilla around him. It was him that plunged into her, that rocked back, that felt her tighten and shudder. Him. No others, never again. She was his, and with every movement he confirmed it. Mine had been the rallying cry and mine continued to echo with every pant and moan.
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Now that they had come this far, though, she needed no prompting. Had things gone differently in the past -- had she gone home with Richard the night Bunny's murder was planned, for example -- she would have enjoyed it fully as much as she enjoyed their coupling now; and she would have participated as enthusiastically as she did now. She was given over to sensation. The experience was an essentially selfish one. She basked in his gaze. He told her she was perfect, a thing she had heard before; his eyes were a heat that could consume her, a focus also not unfamiliar. Charles looked at her just the same way, wanting her to melt. There was nothing here to frighten her or to hint for one second that anything was amiss.
So she welcomed him unstintingly, unsuspectingly, and with a complete disregard for anything but her own pleasure. She questioned nothing. She accepted everything. She wanted this, these long languorous kisses, this curious mingling of gentleness and force, the delicious solid heat of him inside her.
And in the end, maybe the demon did give him one uncompromised triumph after all: when Camilla at last was utterly undone, given over to that last shudder of ecstasy, even though she had been driven beyond thought let alone tact, it was not for Henry or her twin that she called out.
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One arm reached out to gently pull Camilla towards him, playing with the golden strands of her hair. He pressed a light kiss to her temple. "You are so gorgeous," he murmured, breathing still ragged from the exertion.
And she was. Perfectly formed, exquisitely beautiful, like art come to life. Now, of course, completely his. He'd claimed her; the faintly darkening marks on her skin proved it. His other arm lay across her belly, fingers stroking the skin just where her hips flared out. Over the years, Richard knew he'd come to know every inch of Camilla's body. Every dip and curve would be like second nature. Now, though, it was still all fresh and new.
Burying his face in her neck, he trailed kisses down the slope to her shoulder, breathing in her fresh, womanly scent. His and her sweat mingled, the smell of their sex still in the air, all signs of their joining; not just physically, but on some deeper level. Forever. Never die, as Julian used to tell them. Richard understood what the old man had meant, now. Not the body, but the spirit; not this flesh and blood, but love. Their love, his and Camilla's, was eternal.
She was a solid, comforting weight in his arms. Like a star come to nest in his bed, like an angel touching the earth. At once distant and now known. His own, Camilla.
It was perfect.
Just like he'd known it would be.
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She was sated now, at least for the moment. That odd drive she'd felt earlier had quieted. Still, she wanted something, she wasn't sure what. "Do you think I could have a cigarette?" She couldn't remember whether he smoked now or not. "There's a pack in the pocket of my robe. Wherever that ended up." The absence of the robe apparently presented no concern to her.
She waited for him to find her a cigarette and light it for her. "You know, it's really getting late," she observed as she waited. "Would you mind terribly if I stayed the night?" She didn't want to summon Silas to walk her back to Gryffindor safely, and really she didn't feel much like moving. She hadn't felt this relaxed in days.
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"Of course, my dear." He would not, of course, under any circumstances, give her the pack from her robes. They were bound to be Luck Strikes, and Richard wanted no reminder of him in their bed. Instead he flailed out an arm and grabbed his pack from the nightstand, along with a lighter. Handing her a cigarette, he lit it carefully, before settling back down beside her.
<"My bed is yours,"> he murmured, placing a kiss to Camilla's shoulder. How could she not know that, now? What was his was now hers, all of him, all of what he was and would be. As he lay beside her, their bodies tangled together, Richard let his thoughts drift to weddings and houses and the family they would make. The future they had together.
"I've been thinking about buying a house by a lake," he told her, fingers idly playing with her hair. "Something with a huge kitchen and lots of trees. And a library. Not too far from the university, of course, but a little retreat." For them. For their children. "So I could write. Maybe get a dog," a grin, happy and completely at ease, broke across Richard's face. "Do you like dogs, Camilla?"
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He was talking, quietly, and playing with her hair, which felt nice, whispered touches to her scalp. She smiled a little and half-listened. A university, not here, right, he was teaching somewhere before he came here, she remembered she'd sent him a congratulatory card, getting a tenure-track job in academia was quite a coup. "A sizeable kitchen is always nice. God, the one Charles and I had was so tiny. Oh, I do like dogs, yes ... do you remember the greyhound we had? Frost. Charles brought her back from that racetrack. She wasn't with us very long, the poor thing. I do miss her now and again."
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"You should have a big kitchen," he told her with a smile. "With lots of room to work. And windows; a whole wall of windows. So you can see the sun." He pressed a kiss to her forehead. "And a dog." This was said with a little laugh. "What kind would you like?"
No need to even wait until they went back home to get her one, really. Perhaps as a present; Richard was sure he could swing that. There had to be someplace to purchase dogs around here. And it'd be a little promise for Camilla, just a hint of all the ways Richard would spend his life, fulfilling her every desire.
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"I'm sure Francis would love the kind of kitchen you're describing," she said drowsily. "I can't say I've ever given thought to which sorts of dogs are preferable to which other sorts. A woman I know here at Hogwarts has a pet meerkat. She spends so much time on it. I wouldn't like to spend so much time. The nice thing about Frost was that really she took care of herself." None of these assertions carried any real force or conviction. Camilla spoke lazily, no real urgency to it. She was so relaxed. She'd been tense beyond bearing for days. In a way she felt grateful to Richard for doing what he'd done. He'd relieved her tension. Maybe without thinking, he'd known what she needed. He really was quite a good friend after all, wasn't he? Sighing with contentment, she snuggled against him.
"I hope you're not going back to your university so soon, though. We'd all be quite sad to lose you."
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A grown dog, then, not a puppy. He could do that. "No, my dear," he cracked one eye to look over at her fondly. "I think I rather like it here, for now. And think of all the things I'll have to tell my students when I get back. Did you know there's an actual puck here? I met him in the common room the other night. Fascinating creature."
Richard's eyes had closed again, and he bit back a yawn. "No, I'm not going anywhere. Not for a while." His voice was slurred with sleep and he pulled Camilla closer to himself, reveling in the warmth of her body next to his.
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Where the room had felt stiflingly hot before, now it seemed to Camilla suffused with sweet lulling warmth, not overpowering; and staying close to Richard still seemed to help her breathe, enhanced by that breezy blue scent of his. In the wake of Henry's disappearance, Camilla's sleep had been irregular and fitful. Now, when the conversation faded, she lapsed easily into a light sleep at Richard's side. Maybe she'd only missed having someone next to her.
She only woke once in the night. Half-awake, forgetting where she was and who was here with her, she reached for the man sleeping beside her, murmuring drowsy endearments, one or two of which were in Greek and would only have been heard from her before by Henry. At some point in the ensuing proceedings she did register that she was with Richard, and that was all right, too, she supposed. He was her friend. She could let him take care of her. And he did, well enough that she slept again far into the morning.
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When he finally awoke, it was from a dream into a day brimming with promise. For once, the dream was outweighed by reality. There was a golden head resting on his shoulder, beautiful silken skin beneath his fingers, and the scent of her filling every sense. It was, in short, heaven, such as poets and philosophers could not dare to dream.
Watching her sleep, Richard didn't dare stir, didn't even breathe for fear of wakening her. He wanted this moment - this bliss - to go on forever. And he had the singular joy of knowing that it would. There would be countless more mornings like this, following countless nights like the one before. This was Richard's nirvana. His lifelong pursuit of happiness had just come to glorious fruition.
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"Hi, you," she said, sleepily, sweetly -- the same sweetness Francis would have recognised as so characteristic of Camilla's twin. "Did I miss anything?"
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He leaned down to brush a tender kiss on her forehead. "Can I get you something? Coffee? Breakfast? Are you hungry? I can get us some breakfast." With all the eagerness of a puppy, Richard sat up, trying to remember how one summoned a house-elf. "Do you want some toast? Or pancakes, maybe?" He just wanted this morning to be as perfect as the evening before. Perhaps he was a little overenthusiastic. But nothing was too much for Camilla.
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"Pancakes?" She blinked. "No, toast will be fine. Toast and fruit, I think. Grapefruit? Or pears. Something. I guess I should get up. It wouldn't be very nice to get crumbs all in your bed." God, she'd really slept here, hadn't she? No, she'd done rather more than sleep here. Memories of the preceding night began to coalesce fuzzily in her head. How very odd. After all these years, to have succumbed -- well, she couldn't be blamed, could she? So much strain on her nerves. Stretching, she sighed and bestowed a faint smile upon her doting suitor. No, was that quite right? Suitor? He'd gotten what he wanted, so then he wasn't a suitor any more, wasn't that how it worked? She wasn't sure, in English. Anyhow she didn't regret any of it, as long as it didn't make him very tiresome. She felt good, aching in all the right places.
"That was nice," she said graciously.
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Then he laughed, propping himself up on one elbow, resting on his side so he might look down at her. "Why should I care about crumbs?" Why would he care about anything like that, ever again? "Stay. Relax. Don't go."
The elf chose that moment to return with their tray, which Richard took, pulling it towards them, and immediately pouring Camilla a cup of coffee and offering it to her before fixing his own.
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That same little hum of pleasure, unsettlingly like the sound she'd made the night before, for him -- Camilla totally unconscious of this.
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Never in his life had he been so just out and out happy. Not in his childhood, not even at Hampden, certainly not in the years that followed. Oh, he'd had brief flashes of contentment - usually helped by pills or alcohol or both - but nothing this deep. This permanent. He couldn't think of a single thing in the world that could break this. "You were. You are. You're a goddess, Camilla. Surely you know that."
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She swallowed her bit of pear and pulled her hair away from her face, twisting it into a golden rope. "I can't say I do know that," she said quietly. "But it's nice to hear."
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"You are," he repeated, fervently. "And you should know it."
Grinning again, he offered her more pear, watching the way the sunlight caught her hair, making it into a glorious crown of golden light. "I'm thinking a fall wedding," he told her lightly, too filled with giddy good cheer to even take this too seriously at the moment. There was a bit of nervous trepidation in his tone, however - even though he knew this was fate, knowing something and having it confirmed are two completely different things. "You'd look like heaven, all in white, with the countryside turned to flames around you."
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She laughed and ate the fruit he offered her, daintily. "But it's not pears associated with Persephone, you know," she reminded him, taking up the cup of coffee he'd poured for her. He'd remembered she didn't take sugar. How thoughtful. "It's pomegranate. Which aligns rather nicely with your autumn imagery, doesn't it? Vivid, deep red." She was really still a little sleepy yet.
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He smiled down at his Camilla, his bride, and kissed the top of her head. "And pomegranate suits you, my dear. It would make you shine." Pomegranate it was. Wedding colors picked, and the location of the ceremony, all in one fell swoop. The date would have to wait until Richard found out how transportation could be arranged, but he didn't anticipate that would be difficult. Besides, not everything had to be decided right at the moment. Now was a time to bask in the happiness. "Perhaps pears at the reception?" he teased fondly, popping a slice of the fruit into his own mouth. "And cream cheese and marmalade sandwiches served as hors devours."
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"I'm sure cream cheese and marmalade would make wonderful hors d'oeuvres," she said. "Everyone loves them." This without a hint of irony. Actually, had Camilla been planning a real wedding, she would have opted for an extremely traditional menu. Traditional everything. The wedding would be in a cathedral. There would be the usual canapes -- bacon-wrapped water chestnuts, pate, whatever. It would have been the wedding Nana would have planned had Nana been alive to see it. That Richard did not know this only underscored how little Richard truly knew Camilla; and that Camilla did not say any of this in turn underscored Camilla's utter cluelessness as to how serious Richard was.
She finished her coffee and set the cup aside on the nightstand. No doilies or coasters or anything -- he must not mind leaving scars on the dorm furniture. It was a comfortable little room, and she was comfortable in it; she let herself relax against him, let herself pretend just for a moment she wasn't going back to a room alarmingly devoid of Henry's things.
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The reception would be held at a hall or an auxiliary club, kitchen reeking of a decade of sloppy joe dinners and friday night fish fries. Drinking and dollar dances would preclude the cutting of the cake, wherein the happy couple would smash frosting into each other's faces for the enjoyment of the half-wasted crowd.
And all of this leading up the the new bride tossing the bouquet to some lucky girl, so that she might continue the loop of middle-class plastic cookie-cutter boredom. Then the honeymoon at a hotel just slightly above three stars but somewhere deeply down the line from five; just a brief breath before the husband went back to a soulless job and the wife began her duties as incubator for the next generation of the apathetically predictable.
So, to Richard, the startlingly bright idea of Camilla, so fair and ethereal, standing in graceful white on the cool backdrop of a thousand autumn colors, was something of the divine. It was a million miles away from the hot, sticky, drab world he'd known. Higher than he'd ever dreamed he could touch, a star pulsing under his quivering fingertips.
Was it any wonder, then, that he couldn't grasp the utter disconnect between his fantasies and Camilla's? He was a Plano boy who had lost his way and somehow stumbled onto heaven. Nose pressed to the glass, he imagined himself on Mount Olympus when his feet were still firmly planted on dusty shag carpet.
Arm tightening slightly around Camilla, hand stroking up and down her arm with the tentative brush of an archaeologist discovering man's greatest treasure, Richard only knew he was content. He rested his cheek on her head and smiled, brilliant and pure. "Of course they do."
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Now that she'd remembered it, the cream cheese and marmalade sandwich sitting untouched in its napkin wrapping seemed to reproach her. It reminded her of other such sandwiches, in other rooms. Charles somewhere in Ravenclaw, in this very same dorm, her brother whom she was neglecting even now; nights they'd gone without dinner because one of them had distracted the other. When she was with Henry she didn't think nearly so much about her twin. With Richard, though, she found her thoughts circling back inexorably to Charles, locked in an orbit both painful and doomed. She'd resisted, for Henry's sake, though she had not the slightest idea where Henry could have gone; and now what had she done? She'd gone and slept with Richard of all people, someone whom she owed nothing, an action that no argument however tenuous or daring could ever justify as necessary.
Camilla had never needed to diet. It was a concept with which she was familiar from magazines read in waiting rooms. And it seemed to her now that what she'd done was rather like the sort of thing she read about dieters doing. Passing up Charles and sleeping with Richard -- it was as though she'd resisted the creme brulee at a nice restaurant, only to fall from grace with a Twinkie in the wee hours of the morning.
And now she was almost tempted to go find Charles, out of sheer contrariness. She'd done worse now; why not?
It was her natural laziness that saved her from that sudden destructive impulse. Richard was holding onto her and she didn't particularly feel like moving just yet. Also, she needed a bath; she couldn't very well go to Charles like this.
"I must be a mess," she said absently, thinking aloud.
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He had no idea what was going through Camilla's mind. If he did... Well, he'd suffered her rejection once, but with hopes much less high than they were now. To know that she thought of her twin while in bed with him might break him. Camilla had that power; she very literally held him in her delicate hands, and he willingly gave himself over to her.
A mistake he could not realize the depth of.
"No," he told her with a smile. "You're never a mess." Not even after Bunny, even those half-remembered glimpses he'd gotten of her after the bacchanal attempts, not even after Henry. Disheveled, yes. But Camilla couldn't be a mess if she tried. She transcended beyond that.
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Francis or even Julian might have called it divine. Judy Poovey, on the other hand, might have termed it heroin chic.
Be that as it may, there was just no way of casting a favorable light on the red and purple blotches spreading across the fair expanse of Camilla's neck (and trending southward, though the line of the sheet she'd pulled up around her torso mercifully interrupted them). Little starbursts of burst blood vessels fanning out into broken nebulae, no more romantic than anything else an animal might do to mark its territory. Lacking a mirror, Camilla had no idea how truly bad the marks were. She'd wince when she saw them later, out of sheer embarrassment, and thank God (and Stephen) for the pot of bruise balm she still had stashed away.
All she knew for now was that her night of passionate abandon with Richard had left her smelling of alcohol and woodsmoke and sex, and she fancied she detected the tickle of toast crumbs in her cleavage from breakfast. Oh, it had been nice toast, and nice debauchery, she wouldn't deny that. And it was nice not to need to worry about the elaborate contraceptive precautions other people had to use, ugly rubber contraptions; long ago Camilla had chosen an IUD as protection against the production of unwanted twincestuous offspring. But now she was left with what one might term that not-so-fresh feeling.
"It's sweet of you to say so," she murmured back, gently disentangling herself from his arms, "but I can't think of anything I'd like so much as a bath right now, really. Thanks ever so much for breakfast."
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Richard wanted to protest, to pull her back into his embrace. But he recognized both the fact that he had much to do to pull together a wedding on only a few months notice and that this was by no means a one-time thing. Not a brief tumble between the sheets. It was a lifetime, and there would be countless mornings like this. So, settling for a light kiss pressed to her shoulder, he nodded. Running one hand through his hair, Richard chuckled. "Yeah, I think a good, hot shower is in order. But...I'll see you later?"
Hopeful and bright, his eyes tracked Camilla with worship and adoration that would not have been out of place on a priest of some ancient religion watching his goddess. Or a puppy hoping for walkies.
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So she thought he simply meant they'd see one another again in the same old way, as their circle of friends always found one another. Random visits to one another's rooms. Gravitating toward one another at Sortings or at meals. They lived in one another's pockets.
Modest, she half wanted to drag the sheet with her when she rose from the bed to reassemble her discarded clothing and to dress for what she hoped would not be too conspicuous a walk back to her own dorm. It was fortunate she made herself leave the sheet where it belonged. Its dragging tail would have hidden the broken glass she'd dropped the night before, and Camilla would have ended up with a shard in her foot. "I've made a mess of your room too," she said ruefully as she dressed. "Do you want me to send some house-elves by?"