He smiled up at Yukimura. "I'll try not to, I guess," he said, looking pained. "Kusuriyuri and I have a lot of work to do. My mind...well, it's like a battle field, really. I'm not in denial any more, at least, but I have to work at it to get rid of the want to pretend that things aren't wrong. To make sure I don't fall back into doing so."