Okay, let's see if I can not be an ass. I look at the cocoa in my mug, talking slowly so I can think. "Matt, you're my friend. That's first and foremost. If...if being with Ryuzaki, however you guys decide to be together, makes you happy, then I can quit bitching at you. But, I don't want you not going after what'll make you happy because you're too..." How am I going to say this? I bite my lip and go for broke, "...because I screwed up, okay."