He'd been lucky. He'd needed it, for a while; let's face it, when you're eight years old and your family's dead and you're technically a genius, you need something, and "I'm going to be L someday" is certainly that. And for a while... well. He might've been. But eventually it had stopped being something he needed and more something he wanted; and then something he only kind of wanted; and then he wasn't really sure about wanting it and that's when he knew that it was gone. But it hadn't ever trapped him.
Matt never let himself drop below third place, but he worked it well, making sure there was enough of a gap between himself and Mello make sure he wasn't a real contender any more. There was just... something Near and Mello had that he didn't. And he was cool with that. But that's how it worked with L-the-concept. A flesh and blood person with real flaws and real quirk, not invincible, not infallible after all...
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He'd been lucky. He'd needed it, for a while; let's face it, when you're eight years old and your family's dead and you're technically a genius, you need something, and "I'm going to be L someday" is certainly that. And for a while... well. He might've been. But eventually it had stopped being something he needed and more something he wanted; and then something he only kind of wanted; and then he wasn't really sure about wanting it and that's when he knew that it was gone. But it hadn't ever trapped him.
Matt never let himself drop below third place, but he worked it well, making sure there was enough of a gap between himself and Mello make sure he wasn't a real contender any more. There was just... something Near and Mello had that he didn't. And he was cool with that. But that's how it worked with L-the-concept. A flesh and blood person with real flaws and real quirk, not invincible, not infallible after all...
Hm.
"Never really took?"